PAST FEW WEEKS

I have been missing in action the last few weeks and I have a reason. I had been talking it over with JP on how I was going to tell it. He has been a better blogger than me, but whatever.

I decided to make some visits around the country. My first stop was to see a buddy of mine in Colorado. The mountains there are so beautiful. I stayed with him and his girlfriend and just had a good 3 days of partying and hanging out.

From there I went and met the roomies in Las Vegas. We spent 5 days in Sin City and had a blast. The third night there we went out to dinner and decided to hit up a club. We get there, it was kind of lame, I wasn't feeling it at all. I sat at the bar and ordered a drink from the hot bartender.

I decided to roll out and head to a "gay bar" down the street. I told my buddies I would be back in a few. Playing craps or some shit like that. They were talking to some soroity girls.

I get to the bar and I am very nervous. I walk in and I feel like everyone is starring at me. I ordered a drink, sat at the bar and just watched out over the crowd. I liked people watching there. I had a bunch of older dudes hit on me and I said I wasn't interested. Then I had this guy come up and order a drink and sent one my way. It was very Hollywood. The bartender came over and gave me another Captain and Coke and pointed to a guy across from me saying he bought it for me. I went over to say thank you.

He was younger looking. Turns out he was 21 years old and going to be a senior at a school in California. He was out with a couple of his fraternity brothers visiting and snuck away. I realized that we had a lot in common. He was in a frat and played Lax for his school. I told him how I played baseball in college and now lived near him in California working. Did not tell him about playing minor ball or anything. We kept talking and more and more I am into him. He was taller than me, about 6'4", had light brownish hair that almost had a auburn tint to it. Blue eyes which I cream over and a hot bod. I'll call him Joe.

We ended up leaving the club together and he called to see where his buddies were. He said he was going to take a nap and meet them at 1am at some bar. It bought us some time to go and hook up. We got to his hotel and got to his room. It was a suite so we went to one of the bedrooms, closed and locked the door and went at it. We hooked up for a good 45 minutes till we wee both spent.

We exchanged phone numbers, since he lived close by and went back out and met our friends. The rest of the trip we would text message eachother like we were little 13 year old girls. I left while he still had 2 more days in Vegas and we still text messaged eachother and called.

He was hot and I can imagine you can see where this is going. Joe got back to Cali and called me as soon as he was back at his house near school. I made the half hour drive to go see him and ended up staying the night at his house because he had it to himself. His 2 roommates were home visiting parents and stuff. I have been spending a LOT of time hanging with him. He is staying in Cali for Christmas break and I want to see more of him. For the first time, I can see myself dating a guy. Joe is a regular, jock kinda guy. He has a messy room, loves watching football and hockey. The sex is also great. ;-)

I wanted to let you guys know there has been a reason for not posting a lot. I am making the effort to do more posts. The e-mails are great. I love hearing from you guys and hearing that I am helping some of you cope with liking guys is awesome. Keep the pictures coming and e-mail me. I will try to post more in the future. here are some more awesome shots you guys have left me in my inbox. keep them coming.

Back for some more

I haven't been posting at all. For those who read, you know that when I don't post it means I am way to fucking busy and will make it around to it. I have been busting my ass lately. I have been getting e-mails and have not been responding to them. So let me catch you guys up with what I have been doing..

I was back home in the Northeast with family for Thanksgiving. It was a fun time. Saw my buddy JP at the Bears game a few weeks ago. Flew back west for a few days and came home for a suprise Thanksgiving treat for my folks. Well, my dad bought the ticket for me to come home and didn't tell my mother.

JP and I have been talking every few days which is cool. I guess he is writing the story of how we met and how we became better friends for his blog so I will let him tell it and link to it when it is done.

I saw a bunch of people from high school while I was home. As usual, girls will always ask... "do you know (insert famous player here) I respond with a No.

Nothing has really happened to talk about though. I have been scared to talk to guys lately. Call me paranoid. I don't know. Online has been a great refuge for me. Thanks to all of you guys who read. Without you guys, this would be nothing and I would have given up way back when. I love getting the e-mails from guys saying how much they love the blog.

One guy today, the first time I have been online in MONTHS, says to me "I haven't hooked up with a guy yet. After reading your blog I want to hook up with a guy so bad.. you'd get ot be the first i'm not even sure i'd ever do anyone yet..."

First, this guy is HOT. Second, I was thinking that it came off a little stalkerish, but after chatting he told me that he has accepted likeing guys more and feels like he knows me because he is such a loyal reader.

Sorry I have been MIA. I will be back with regluar posts for the next few weeks. I have been gaining some size working out alot...

Keep sending me e-mail and I will be responding to those I have not got back to in a while. Off to the mall to x-mas shop and buy myself an XBox360 (maybe)

California... so far

I have been busy as HELL! I have barely been able to keep up with e-mails and posting on here and I am sorry. I have been crazy everyday with basically baseball.

I had my first road trip in a long time and it was very cool to be back on the road. I have 3 regular roommates that I share a room with while we travel on the road in a hotel. The guys are basically hotties you would love if you are into baseball players

The "Jeter" - He is a little older than me. He has been around, plays shortshop, and has banged a girl from Yale. He is definitly the captain of our team, half puerto rican and half italian. The guy is a regular ricco suave and tries to bag as many girls on roadtrips as possible. He is a lot of talk and has a girlfriend back home, but gets his girl when he puts his mind to it. He is not a big shower taker. He usually walks into the room, uses a shower in the corner and walks out. he trims his pubes and definitly shaves his balls. I have not seen him hard, yet, but I can imagine he is a solid over 7.

The "Metro" - The Metro is a total pretty boy. He is 22 years old and a big metrosexual. He is from Oregon (or Wahsington State.... one of those Northern states) He has these blue eyes that when he stares at you, you are definitly in a trance. Metro shaves all the hair on his body. His chest is pretty hairless and smooth. I found out that he shaved everything the first time I showered in the house in Cali. He is one of my roommates at the house and I noticed that his legs were smooth like a girl. I called him out on it and he was proud to show off his hairless legs, arms armpits and then his nuts. He is a big teabagger. He has tea bagged almost everyone on the team besides the managers and "Jeter". He should be pretty proud of his balls, they are the kind that are low hangers and you can tell that they are just oozing to be let loose (lol... I wrote that, and debated on keeping it in, and I am) He struts around the locker room, proud of his package and is a part of the Shower Crew. After long games, there are a few of us that engage in "crew Talk" which is all about the guys, what girls we have banged, and how drunk we are going to get after the game. If the shower heads have the right temp and pressure, we call a meeting of the crew. if not, its shower time, do your thing and back to the clubhouse to change.

The "Italian Stallion" - This is the Italian guy on the team and most of you know my fondness for Italian guys. His parents are straight off the boat from Sicilly. Cut to the chase, the guy is hung. When he is soft he is about 6 inches (judging from the eye). He is a member of "The Crew" and has an agreement that if the team hits 30 homeruns, he will masterbate wherever we want him to and he will then get about $500 that is in the pot.


I will go on more about the roomies and everyone later but i got to take off for most of the day. I have been working on some e-mails back to you guys and promise to send them out by late afternoon/tonight. Keep writing in!

PLAY BALL!

The playoffs are here (for the majors) and I am happy to have the Yankees in the ALDS and David Wright in the NLDS. I could care less for the "Amazin's" but David Wright is just an instant boner for me.

Not many guys give me an instant boner. There are those guys that I have encountered in my years playing that did. One guy is nammed Kevin. It's his real name. We played college ball together and is just a hottie. He had this ass that looked amazing in a jock strap. Kevin was one of those guys who was just crazy. He always had a dip in his mouth when playing. Outside of playing, he would never dip. It was very strange.

He was also a big man whore. Our first week of school, he met this girl who lived in a dorm on the complete other side of campus. He was determined to bang her that night. So he calls her cell phone, asks her to come over to our dorm to party and she, of course does. Kevin is a stud. About 6'2" blonde hair, blue eyes and the abs of a god. He spent a good ammount of time in the gym and would work his ass off to keep his stomach looking good. To get the ladies to notice him he would always rub his stomach and make sure to expose his abs and "sex lines" to get the girls eyes to wander down to his crotch. From there he was always golden.

That night, the girl brought over a bunch of her friends from her dorm. She was a definitly a hot girl. Kevin did his signature move that "worked all the time at the cape" and she was his the entire night.

A bunch of us went off to a frat party that night to see what else campus had to offer. I came back to Kevin's room, wasted, and walked in. In my drunken state I didn't see anyone in either of the lofted beds. I moved more into the center of the room and looked down on the futon to see Kevin railing this girl Doggie style on the futon. We locked eyes for about 2 seconds. He didn't say a word, just kep't banging the girl from behind with a big smile.

That next day, while in the cafeteria he asked me if I walked in on him last night while he was fucking the girl. I said yeah, sorry about that bro.

He said the strangest thing, "All I could think about the rest of the night was the look on your face when you saw me fucking that chick."

My heart stopped. I thought I was called out right there. He smiled and said, we should have double teamed her.

I laughed, and from there, Kevin has been one of my best friends in the world. And a guy that gives me an instant boner. He has an average sized cock when he is soft and hard it's a god 7 inches long and has good girth. How do I know...

I took him up on a double team one night. He IMed me one night saying this chick wanted to get double teamed. I went over across the hall, and we did our deed. He liked fucking the girl while I got head. I was mostly watching his dick the entire time. If anyone has had a threesome with a friend you know i t can be strange sometimes afterwords. I woke up that morning, in bed, with kevin on the other side. The chick had left at some point during the night. I decided to put my boxers back on, go acorss the hall to my bedroom and fall asleep.

Kevin called and we talked last night about the threesome we had in college, about his life in Hoboken and how he wants to marry his girlfriend. I guess I wanted to post the story because I am sexually frustrated and it's pretty cool that he called me for advice and to catch up.

California...Here I am

I want to thank JP for all 4 posts he made (kind of sarcastic but I love you bro)

I am now all moved into an apartment/house which is an awesome place. I share it with guys from my new team. Most of the guys have been trickling in since August and I have a room all to myself. The guys are cool. We have been practicing and hanging out here. The weather has been awesome and I am getting used to seeing SUNSETS on the ocean. I used to go and watch the sunrise (after drnking alot) and now I get to go drink a lot and watch it set and do some more drinking.

I know what some of you are thinking, LET THE ORGIES BEGIN! But it is nothing like that. Well, sortof. These guys know how to party. We go out, hit on girls, most of them bring them home and bang them. It's funny because this one guy will bang any girl. He will settle on an ugly girl and just make her scream. We sit outside and listen to him and he just bangs the shit out of her. It's a very immature atmosphere (like college) and I am happier now than living with my parents. PLUS I am out playing again and have that sence of being with a team again.

BUT with all of that comes the feeling of being threatened of being outed. And trying to find a way to "get off" I need to start getting creative again. Anyway, here are some pictures that I have found that just describe a lot of what I am feeling and what I have been going through the past few days I have been here.






I asked JP to write some football stuff for me. That should be coming. He has had a lot going on in his life and I hope he is feeling better. To everyone I have NOT been able to talk to (Bob, where have you been I miss your talks) I am sorry. I was really good at keeping up with e-mails and comments but I haven't been able to keep up with everything going on. I know you guys forgive me and I hope all of you keep coming back and reading. It should get interesting to say the least.

Moving....

In my last post I talked about a guest poster here for football season. I talked about how I may need one for a little bit because I will be "away" for a little bit. Some of you that I chat with on AIM and Yahoo know that I am moving but I never wrote anything on my blog about it.

Yeah, I am moving. I am heading from the NY Metro Area to Southern California. I have been training hardcore for this move, which is why I have not been around. I started this blog in 2005 and barely had time to update it until I did have a LOT of free time. I then became addicted to posting. Since then, I have been training with a trainer and doing a lot of work in a batting cage and on the field thanks to my pops and some old high school buddies.

I will be updating the blog while I am in California. Where in Cali am I moving... Southern Cali (SoCal). I guess you guys on the Left Coast should start getting ready for my arrival. I will be gone in September from the East (Right) Coast.

I have been living with my parents and it will be good to get out of their hair and into an apartment with guys that also play baseball out there. It is going to be crazy like college again. I will also have a chance to have some new experiences and new stories to share on the blog. When my buddy does accept the role of posting some entries, for a short period of time, go easy on him. He doesn't blog and wants to keep all of you interested. Don't leave the blog, it's not dead, I am not replacing what I am doing here, I just know that I will be VERY busy when I get out there and know that I can't keep up with the demands that this blog has brought.

I am ver excited at this chance and never thought this blog would GROW the way it has. I have been in contact with some AWESOME guys who are just like me and I know that I have at least been able to shed some light into being a gay athlete in America. Moving to California and continuing my career in Baseball will bring new stories for me to write about and will let me meet new people.

You will all be able to meet my buddy (I won't use his name yet because he hasn't said yes, I am begging here... LoL) who has had pretty much the same experiences growing up but only from a football and "frat boy" perspective.

I am not shutting down the blog... don't panic. I am simply starting a new chapter in my life. A chapter that will lead to new stories, experience and friends.

Thanks to all of you here on the East coast who read and contact me everyday. You guys help me through a lot and let me vent about everything and anything that I need to get off my chest. I thank everyone else around the world for the same stuff.

Okay, I am rambling here now. I am off to the gym and then should be back to make another post.