Not like "The O.C."

California is different than what I expected. I have had some free time today, and time away from being with the guys so I have been able to actualy take my notes and bring them out on the blog.

I have been to Cali before and this time it is different. It is so laid back, more so than the NY area. It's no nice and refreshing. I feel more alive. I am starting a new track in my life and just think that I will be able to do a lot better and so more things then what I was doing in NY. Granted I was trying to get to where I am now, and It is GREAT! I don't know, all the frustration of moving and dealing with everything associated with it is a lot.

September 11th really took a lot out of me. Knowing guys that worked at Ground Zero and not being able to be in the NY area is hard. For those who do live in the NYC area, it's so different. We were effected so much more than the rest of the country. Nothing against those in Washington DC area, but the WTC disaster hurt New Yorkers and those who live in the Tri-State area.

Anyway, enjoy that view I left up there. Start e-mailing me again and I should be getting some locker room stories up soon.Haven't had anything really eventfull happen, plus I haven't seen much.

California...Here I am

I want to thank JP for all 4 posts he made (kind of sarcastic but I love you bro)

I am now all moved into an apartment/house which is an awesome place. I share it with guys from my new team. Most of the guys have been trickling in since August and I have a room all to myself. The guys are cool. We have been practicing and hanging out here. The weather has been awesome and I am getting used to seeing SUNSETS on the ocean. I used to go and watch the sunrise (after drnking alot) and now I get to go drink a lot and watch it set and do some more drinking.

I know what some of you are thinking, LET THE ORGIES BEGIN! But it is nothing like that. Well, sortof. These guys know how to party. We go out, hit on girls, most of them bring them home and bang them. It's funny because this one guy will bang any girl. He will settle on an ugly girl and just make her scream. We sit outside and listen to him and he just bangs the shit out of her. It's a very immature atmosphere (like college) and I am happier now than living with my parents. PLUS I am out playing again and have that sence of being with a team again.

BUT with all of that comes the feeling of being threatened of being outed. And trying to find a way to "get off" I need to start getting creative again. Anyway, here are some pictures that I have found that just describe a lot of what I am feeling and what I have been going through the past few days I have been here.






I asked JP to write some football stuff for me. That should be coming. He has had a lot going on in his life and I hope he is feeling better. To everyone I have NOT been able to talk to (Bob, where have you been I miss your talks) I am sorry. I was really good at keeping up with e-mails and comments but I haven't been able to keep up with everything going on. I know you guys forgive me and I hope all of you keep coming back and reading. It should get interesting to say the least.