New Year, New Feeling

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My life has changed tremendously. One of the things I am very happy about is how awesome I feel. No more watching what I say when I am out with friends. No more worrying that I am going to be shunned by my family. I honestly feel the best I've ever felt.

What sucks is that I wish I felt like this in my prime playing shape. I needed to experience everything that I went through in order to get to the point I am at right now and I know that. I embrace it.

I spent New Year's with a bunch of friends at a bar downtown. Of course Reid came with me. This was the first time I had someone with me that I really cared about on New Years Eve.

Why should I care about the event of New Years? It's a reset button for a lot of people. It's a time to reflect back on life and think about what you want in the coming year.

Every NYE I try to set goals and accomplish them to the best of my ability. This year I looked at my life which was filled with a lot of ups and downs. My year ended on the upside which was fantastic. Looking ahead to 2012 was an amazing feeling. I am in love with a guy and have a huge promotion coming down the pike. Plus I am heading to Vegas with Reid to celebrate a friends birthday... it's a big gay birthday so that should be fun and a new experience.

As far as NYE goes this bar downtown that we went to is straight. No big deal. We got drinking and as it got closer to midnight a buddy of mine asked me if I was going to kiss Reid at midnight and shock most of the people in the bar if they noticed...

I am at a point where I don't care what anyone else thinks of me when I kiss Reid in public. I knew I wanted to make out with the man I loved when that clock struck midnight. I wanted to close out the year and start the new one connected in an embrace with the man I love with all my heart.

This wasn't going to be a random kiss... I planned on putting a lot of emotion and build up into this kiss. A kiss I have been waiting for my entire life. That sounds stupid and corny and a bunch of bullshit but I meant it and I still do.

Leading up to midnight I started whispering in Reid's ear that he was mine at midnight. He likes when i get aggressive. When I leaned in to tell him that I made sure to lick his earlobe a little bit. The minutes ticked down and turned into seconds... at 30 seconds I looked into his eyes and my emotion built up.

The kiss I gave him at midnight was fucking fantastic. For those of you reading and rolling your eyes I'm sorry. I can't help but gush about this guy.

After the celebration was over and everyone in the bar started doing shots and dancing to LMFAO a buddy of mine pulled me aside and told me that he expected nothing less of me that night. If I had not kissed Reid at midnight my buddy was going to give me a bunch of shit for being a pussy and not kissing my boyfriend. Granted the guys I was with could have taken the entire bar plus the bouncers by themselves... it was nice to have the support.

I am incredibly blessed and happy that I have friends that have been supportive and amazing. Not everyone has that kind of support and I have been incredibly lucky to have guys have my back.

Hope all of you had an amazing New Years Eve. Here's to 2012.

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