Tuesday, January 17, 2012

New Year, New Feeling

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My life has changed tremendously. One of the things I am very happy about is how awesome I feel. No more watching what I say when I am out with friends. No more worrying that I am going to be shunned by my family. I honestly feel the best I've ever felt.

What sucks is that I wish I felt like this in my prime playing shape. I needed to experience everything that I went through in order to get to the point I am at right now and I know that. I embrace it.

I spent New Year's with a bunch of friends at a bar downtown. Of course Reid came with me. This was the first time I had someone with me that I really cared about on New Years Eve.

Why should I care about the event of New Years? It's a reset button for a lot of people. It's a time to reflect back on life and think about what you want in the coming year.

Every NYE I try to set goals and accomplish them to the best of my ability. This year I looked at my life which was filled with a lot of ups and downs. My year ended on the upside which was fantastic. Looking ahead to 2012 was an amazing feeling. I am in love with a guy and have a huge promotion coming down the pike. Plus I am heading to Vegas with Reid to celebrate a friends birthday... it's a big gay birthday so that should be fun and a new experience.

As far as NYE goes this bar downtown that we went to is straight. No big deal. We got drinking and as it got closer to midnight a buddy of mine asked me if I was going to kiss Reid at midnight and shock most of the people in the bar if they noticed...

I am at a point where I don't care what anyone else thinks of me when I kiss Reid in public. I knew I wanted to make out with the man I loved when that clock struck midnight. I wanted to close out the year and start the new one connected in an embrace with the man I love with all my heart.

This wasn't going to be a random kiss... I planned on putting a lot of emotion and build up into this kiss. A kiss I have been waiting for my entire life. That sounds stupid and corny and a bunch of bullshit but I meant it and I still do.

Leading up to midnight I started whispering in Reid's ear that he was mine at midnight. He likes when i get aggressive. When I leaned in to tell him that I made sure to lick his earlobe a little bit. The minutes ticked down and turned into seconds... at 30 seconds I looked into his eyes and my emotion built up.

The kiss I gave him at midnight was fucking fantastic. For those of you reading and rolling your eyes I'm sorry. I can't help but gush about this guy.

After the celebration was over and everyone in the bar started doing shots and dancing to LMFAO a buddy of mine pulled me aside and told me that he expected nothing less of me that night. If I had not kissed Reid at midnight my buddy was going to give me a bunch of shit for being a pussy and not kissing my boyfriend. Granted the guys I was with could have taken the entire bar plus the bouncers by themselves... it was nice to have the support.

I am incredibly blessed and happy that I have friends that have been supportive and amazing. Not everyone has that kind of support and I have been incredibly lucky to have guys have my back.

Hope all of you had an amazing New Years Eve. Here's to 2012.

A lot of you in the comments have been asking how to get in touch with me... you can hit me up here.


Gage Glenn said...

I believe this will be the first time I have ever left you a message, Slugger. I have followed you blog for some time and I am so happy for the way things have progressed for you in the past few months. I have laughed with you and cried with you and now I celebrate with you. You have given me the courage to open up and share my journey as I attempt to come out from under a marriage that never should have taken place over a decade ago and start my life over as I will reach the half century mark in just over 2 months. It is a stressful but exciting time in my life and reading your blog gives me so much hope and encouragement. I am so glad you had a great NYE. Cheers!

Anonymous said...

i'll be uncharacteristically brief. heartfelt congratulations and best wishes for a long and loving life together. so many people share in your joy and happiness...i'm just one. I found my guy, i'm so very, very glad you found yours.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers!
All the best,

Jerry said...

Slugger: You are another example of how being true to yourself, and allowing yourself to express all the love and affection inside you can bring out so much joy and happiness. You suppress your natural emotional nature because you think that's what is expected of you -- but I find it encouraging that you are taking more steps to be the real you -- don't apologize for gushing, it just means you are so happy.

socrkid17 said...

damn man, thats so sickkk im really happy for you and Reid and wish you the best. it sounds too perfect! i cant wait until im at that point of my life

VpO said...

Not much to say except - AWESOME!

Immanuel said...

I couldn't be happier for you. This is going to be a great year for your. God Bless you and yours.


JockBro said...

Awww thatʻs so awesome man! Someday I hope to have a kiss like that :)

nickdag said...

I'm very happy for you.

mac said...

That just sounds so great. I wish the two of you all the best in the new year!

dan said...

excellent new years! so happy for you slugger. 2012 definitely going to be a great one, and no more goals of coming out or worrying about it, relief! cheers. dan

SpiritMountainGuy said...

I'm glad the two of you had an awesome new year's eve and I wish you both all the best for 2012! I hope its even better than the last!

~ Volker

Doug said...

I'm SOOO happy for you! I have been away from the blogs for a while so coming back to courage to come out to your family and to your awesome NYE kiss makes me so freaking happy. Giant smile on my face.

I wish you all the best, Slugger! Can't wait to find out more about the goings-on in your life! :)

Mike said...

Wow, I wasn't able to check up on your blog for over eight months for a number of personal issues that I had been going through in much of 2011, but I check back a couple of days ago, and a lot has happened for you... a lot of good things. Hope all is well with you, congrats on coming out to your family, and I hope you keep us updated here on your blog.

Good luck,


Unknown said...

Ok, you got me on the NYE kiss. You brought a tear. DAMN YOU LOL j/k. I have read your blog from the start and I am so proud of you and the journey you have taken! Beat of luck with Reid.

ddices said...

really great post. Lookig foward to when i find a guy to love. I came out shortley after you did. Have not yet come out to my team, have you? Something I am working on.

oni419 said...

It's absolutely inspiring to see athletes like yourself be happy with who they are. This is a process I've been struggling too with myself but over the last year, i have found a lot of strength and support from my friends and boyfriend. Look forward to reading your next post. Stay strong.

oni419 said...

Happy for you and your partner. Very encouraging and inspiring to see people like yourself being open to express who they're to other men or women athletes who might be struggling to come out. Keep on the good work.

oni419 said...

Very inspiring and great to see how you've grown. I assuming before you started this blog it was a bit terrifying. Happy for you and your partner. Keep being strong.

Neal Pineda said...

So I stumbled upon this blog somehow by googling Latter Day's Steve Sandvoss and I literally spent an entire hour sitting down and reading most of your entries. Let me just say I am glad I came across your blog!

To see where you were before, and see how things have progressed since then... it is very inspiring, and I just wanted to thank you for sharing your thoughts.

I am very happy for you and Reid, sounds like you have something very special there.

Also wanted to congratulate on your coming out to your friends and family, sounds like you had it rough with your parents... but it must be a big load of your chest, and no matter how hard, sounds like it was worth it in the end.

And I agree with the others... don't apologize for gushing! To see someone as happy as you is so inspirational, and would only bring joy to others. I honestly look forward to your gushing... it's nice to see you happy.

Anyway, good luck with your endeavors. Can't wait for you next post.

Anonymous said...

All i can say is Wow...no joke that was awesome...and its great to know that there are other guys out there who are willing to stand up for themselves. I kinda feel like a fan now.

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