Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Complicated

Everyone, thank you so much for the e-mails and comments. I am in a weird mood right now so I guess bare with me while I get through everything. First, lets talk about Joe. For those who have been following the "relationship" between us you know that joe made a visit to spring training and we spent an entire weekend together.

He has been back at school, and fell out of touch the last few weeks with me. At first I thought It was finals. I remember how stressfull finals were when i was in school. Now imagine that along with playing baseball. Joe is trying out for a professional lax team and we haven't talked as much as I wanted to. I honestly think I am paranoid. I am pretty far away from him and it's his senior year in college and know he is probaly fucking around with other guys. It kills me. The only person that I know that knows about Joe is JP and I woke him up today and we talked about it. I fell really hard and really fast for Joe. Now I have to stop and think about what is good for me and what won't make my head explode.

What I do know is that I am playing some great ball right now. I've learned not to let shit like this bother me as much on the field. When I am out there playing, I don't have a care in the world. some of you guys who have played sports know that once you get in that "zone" nothing really throws you off.

I had an interesting conversation with Micifus Phil. Even though he stopped blogging I still think he is a cool guy. Anyway, he is writing a paper on Professional Athletes and why they should come out of the closet. I have been thinking about it since yesterday and think I have some valid points as to why it's hard for someone like me to come out of the closet. I will save those for another day.

As always, shoot me your ASK SLUGGER questions by email and I will be in touch soon.

11 comments:

Matthew Dean said...

Hey guy--stay stong. Been there and done that with what you are going through. Lean on your friends as that is what they are there for and can help you. Even venting on your site like this is a good way to work out some issues...keep it up, you are doing great!

Closeted said...

Good to hear that baseball is goin good. Focus on what you can control and know that in the end everything will work out, if that makes any sense. And like always continue kicking ass this season.

Rick D said...

100% agree with the guys above - keep on keeping on with work. If the stuff with Joe is meant to be it will work regardless of distance, school, your schedule, etc. Luckily your work is a great physical outlet. Take advantage of it.

Mike said...

Take care of yourself, buddy. Things will work out.

Tom said...

Hey man....
ditto to all the guys above.....this relationship thing can drag ya down if you let it...so focus on ball; I know it's not easy, but it'll keep you sane! Good luck....and keep us updated on how you are playing!

TonkaManOR said...

Hi, if it's meant to happen it will. You can't make something happen and you can't rush it either.

Cheers!

Anonymous said...

nice blog.. im glad i found it..

MotoXLA said...

I certainly understand where you are in some respects. My last true love was a former pro athlete. Not an easy journey at times. But it was all worth it. Sounds like there is more than one issue going on though. The jealousy issue (which many of us have to deal with and a good one to conquer) and your deep feelings for this guy.

Brechi said...

OK this is funny. I'm clicking around and then I see a cute guy with a pail on his head. hahahah

bellarosa said...

Hey Slugger, love your blog. I agree with what everyone else has said here, just keep doing what you're doing. Your head is in the right place and you've got your priorities straight. I know it sucks to hear this, but I really believe that if it's meant to be, the thing w/Joe will work out.
Keep on hitting the ball, though, baby, 'cause baseball makes the world go 'round. Well, baseball and David Wright, but that's just my opinion.

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