Wow, I am doing two posts in a row. Someone out there will have a hard on because of it. Read the "Ask Slugger" entry one down for a good question.
I have been SLAMMED the last few weeks. Lot has been going on. Thank you to everyone who is happy that I have been able to find someone like Joe. A lot of you have said that it "sounds easy" for me to accept it and still be in the closet. A lot of you have no idea.
For me, it's easy for me to talk about emotions here on the blog because it is my safe place. A place where guys, like me, and guys not like me have a chance to read about what I am thinking about while living in an environment that does not readily accept an openly gay man playing a game.
In front of the guys, and with a lot of guys who I have become close with, have NO IDEA that Joe exists. Remember, there are only a hand full of people that know me and know my sexual identity. These are trusted friends of mine that I have built up trust with enough to be able to talk about what I experience.
While I am on the topic, there have been some assholes out that think that after talking on AIM for a few minutes will automatically make me send them a picture of myself. ARE YOU CRAZY? I know a few of you are reading, it pisses me off when you guys do that so STOP.
JP, for example, a good friend of mine that I have known since I was a teenager at camp. He is a trusted friend, who I have been a dick to. He knows it, I know it, and I apologized to him last week and as a trusted friend he forgave me.
Back on topic, my blog is for me. It's my safe place to be able to come and talk about what I am feeling and what I want to do. I answer questions, give you guys an insight into what it's like moving up in the majors and some of my sexual history as well. I know I have been busy as all hell lately, but please, be conciderate of me.
As I said, life is busy, Joe is getting ready for graduation and has been really busy with everything that he needs to do to finish. He has a try-out for MLL (major league lax) and has been working out hardcore for it. I don't know what the future holds for me and this guy, what I do know is that I am jerking off way too much and when I am with him, the sex is amazing.
Sorry for the explosion up there, some stuff has been built up for me. Keep the ASK SLUGGER questions coming and I'll post something soon.