So it happened. I went out to a bar (straight of course) and found myself just gawking at the guys there. It’s hard. I was out with a few guys getting beers at a local bar. It’s a big college dive bar. The kind where you can catch a game and have drunk college girls falling all over the place. Most of my friends go to these bars regularly because they know they can get any girl in there. “Yea, I play baseball” Girls just seem to cream over that shit.
So, we are in the bar. Having a really good time shooting shit and just being the dumb asses we are. They had a special 180 and Vodka’s for $3. If you have never had one, go out and have one. Helps you stay up late and gets you wrecked. So, after I’d say 3 of these my buddies start looking for their latest girl to bring home and I make eyes at a guy. Now this place is the straightest of places and I notice this really cute guy standing with a bunch of girls. I have my mental checklist going in my head. He’s chatting it up with them but not clinging to any certain one there. I’m a good looking guy, so I walk by and try to get his attention pretending to find one of my buddies. I pass by where he was sitting and saw him look at me out of the corner of my eye. Jackpot!
I stand at the edge of the bar and try to look lonely ( I was lonely) On his way back from the bathroom he stops to grab a drink and I engage in casual conversation. His name is Alex and he is a senior at the in town college. Very cool guy. You could not tell that he was gay at all. We talked the entire night and at last call he invited me back to the house he lived in for the after party. My buddies brought their girls with them and I ended up staying the night. Very happy about this.
I haven’t told him that I play “professional baseball” yet. Just say I like playing baseball and work in Real Estate (I know lame, huh) I never know what to say or if its gunna come out at all. Is anyone else out there reading? Leave comments, questions, anything. I feel like I have no clue what to say on here.
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Spending the night -- or -- "spending the night?"
eh?
You said:
"Leave comments, questions, anything. I feel like I have no clue what to say on here."
What to say? Whatever you want to. Talk about life, dreams, hopes, aspirations. Or just stupid little things that other people do that drive you crazy ... or that you find cool and endearing.
In short, just talk. Look at it this way, nobody knows who the hell you are, so you can just be totally whoever you want to be. Be yourself. Tell us about yourself. Reveal.
So you stayed the night.........was anyone else there or just you two?
I'm an out gay guy who isn't particularly good at putting myself out there in social situations...so is my situation really all that different than yours?? Yes in some respects and no in many others. I love the part about looking lonely in the bar :) maybe I should try that.
i just found out about your blog on queerty.com (saying you want to quit baseball) and decided to read it from the beginning...
In this early post of yours you write tht you have no clue on what to say, but i have to say that it sounds already interessting at this post... thinking that there is a lot more to come for me to read...
so i already wish you good luck for everything in future...
cheers
I also just started reading your blog from the beginning. My BF told me about it. He found it through Outsports I think. My comment for this post is in response to your description of the guy when you say: "Very cool guy. You could not tell that he was gay at all." I'm not sure if these two thoughts are meant to be connected. If you could have told that he was gay, would that have made him less cool?
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