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ASK SLUGGER #4

“hey, ive been reading ur blogs,and as an athlete myself how do you deal with locker rooms and showers? thanks man”

I know I have answered this question a few times and even blogged about it so click here and read up!

I haven’t had many great questions sent in. Mostly they are asking me about how I like to shower and if I have banged anyone on my team. LoL

I also wanted to give an update on Joe. We talked on Friday night while I was on my road trip. We both decided that since we were far away from each other and that since he will be trying out to MLL that we would just stay friends, with benefits. One day I hope to be able to be together with him and be in a real relationship but right now it is not possible. I also have a confession that will be posted in a few days.

Thanks again to the guys that e-mail me. I will be getting back to you tonight.

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I love that you guys leave me comments. I don’t update enough and I have got a lot of shit for it. I just got back from another weekend road trip that included stops in a few places.

I just got word that there is a chance that I will be moving up to another team and in a bigger city. I have been playing very well. The last series I played in I went 7-10 with 5 RBI’s. I think that might be the first time I have ever posted stats on here.

I should be getting word in a few days if they will be moving me up. If so I would be moving to a city that has some good nightlife and I am excited to get out of the small city/big town where I am now.

I wanted to talk about the comments everyone leaves on the site and the emails you guys send me. I still want to do “Ask Slugger” and keep you guys updated on what I am doing in my life and where I am going. I never suspected that there were so many guys like me out there.

When I say like me I mean former and current athletes that have had the same experiences. Getting e-mails from you guys is like crack. I can’t get enough of it. I do want to talk about some of the negative stuff I have been getting from you guys.

There have been a few of you over the past few weeks that have been e-mailing and saying that I should come out and be true to who I am and not hide because “everyone on your team probably knows that you are gay anyway.” To those who have said something along those lines I want to say thank you for your opinion but you are not in my shoes.

There is stuff that I share on here and stuff that I do not. There are a lot of guys in my clubhouse that are very homophobic and have said “I hate fags”. There are some that stick up for guys and say that they don’t care but for the most part it would be scary for me to even think about what could happen.

There was a guy a few years ago who was a good up-an-coming ball player who was rumored to have been gay. He ended up getting married and having a few kids after those rumors started to swirl. He was playing AA and AAA ball for a few years, bouncing from team to team and I got to know him his last year of trying to be a pro ball player. I had heard the rumors and guys had told me to stay away from him because he took it in the ass.

It didn’t matter to me. I was hoping that he would come out to me or try to hit on me, he was a good looking guy. One day he was called into the managers office and was told that he was being sent down to single A club in the middle of nowhere. H ewas having problems with his wife and money was coming in short. He decided to call it quits at the end of the season after begging to be able to play AA. This was just because there were rumors that he was gay. He was a great player and deserved to be at the AAA level even traded to a bad team like Tampa to try to prove himself. But because of the rumors he was run out of baseball. I don’t want to go down like that.

If I want to come out, I will likely do so after I am done playing baseball and have a secure job.

I had to get that off my chest. I am also awake on red bull and vodka and wanted to share.

Complicated

Everyone, thank you so much for the e-mails and comments. I am in a weird mood right now so I guess bare with me while I get through everything. First, lets talk about Joe. For those who have been following the "relationship" between us you know that joe made a visit to spring training and we spent an entire weekend together.

He has been back at school, and fell out of touch the last few weeks with me. At first I thought It was finals. I remember how stressfull finals were when i was in school. Now imagine that along with playing baseball. Joe is trying out for a professional lax team and we haven't talked as much as I wanted to. I honestly think I am paranoid. I am pretty far away from him and it's his senior year in college and know he is probaly fucking around with other guys. It kills me. The only person that I know that knows about Joe is JP and I woke him up today and we talked about it. I fell really hard and really fast for Joe. Now I have to stop and think about what is good for me and what won't make my head explode.

What I do know is that I am playing some great ball right now. I've learned not to let shit like this bother me as much on the field. When I am out there playing, I don't have a care in the world. some of you guys who have played sports know that once you get in that "zone" nothing really throws you off.

I had an interesting conversation with Micifus Phil. Even though he stopped blogging I still think he is a cool guy. Anyway, he is writing a paper on Professional Athletes and why they should come out of the closet. I have been thinking about it since yesterday and think I have some valid points as to why it's hard for someone like me to come out of the closet. I will save those for another day.

As always, shoot me your ASK SLUGGER questions by email and I will be in touch soon.